It's Christmas y'all,are you ready??

今晚，度过了一个很不一样的圣诞节。
去了一个圣诞音乐布道会，那位博士说的道理，
太准了，太棒了，句句刺入人心。
让我想到了这句：
【一句责备话，入聪明人心，强如责打愚昧人一百下。 箴言17:10】

今晚，我收到了我爸爸在外地send给我的message，
听说，一封要五块钱＝＝
很温暖，很感动，给了我很多动力，鼓励，
很想哭，上帝对我太好了，赐给了我这么好的爸爸妈妈。
所以，我是该收收心情，准备明年的奋战了。

今晚，跟着朋友一起庆祝超好笑的圣诞节，
感谢你们给了我美好的回忆，很开心。

Tonight, we are young!!! Merry Christmas y'all :)

One by one,and Step by step

经历了这么多事情，我发现自己在一夜之间长大了。
这次竟然不用别人来安慰鼓励我，反而自己学着去安慰他们。
原来这几年来，我一直那么自私的关在自己的世界里，
不学着去和外界接触，因为至少我觉得在自己的世界里，
我不用在乎别人对我的看法，我是安全的，我主裁自己的世界。

但渐渐的我发现，锁着自己，负面的情绪会一直浮现，
不只影响自己，还有其他人。
现在我要一步一步学习，走出自己的世界，
我要做出成绩给你们看，我是可以的，
我是有责任感的，我是认真的。

我的世界，再见了，我还是会回来看你的，或许只是偶尔吧。

加油

我不知道我自己在还怕什么，

你说给我听吧。

放你出去，让你学习，不是叫你怨天忧人。

那我在忧什么？

久违了，我的部落格.

有感而发第一篇：
发现我们一直却步，停顿在我们的梦想里面。
那些历经了风雪的大人们，我尊敬你们，有听你们的话。
我没有当耳边风，我是记得的。
但是哦，也请你们体谅一下我们的感受，
不是我们懵懂，是我们没有经历过，哪里明白你们所说的：辛苦
是啦，这两个字谁不懂？？只是个人辛苦的定义不同。
让我们自己去经历下咯，让我们明白你们的辛苦。
不要泼我们冷水了，要我们自己再去寻找梦想很烦的，
我们的未来不是你们三言两语就可以粉碎的。
OK?? 我还是爱你们的，没有讨厌。。谢谢你们啊

有感而发第二篇：
没有钱啊！！！！！！！！！！！！！
为什么其他人可以含着金汤匙出生，而我们最多不是含着塑料汤匙？？ :(
为什么其他人可以每天穿不同的衣服鞋子，而我们却要等到一年一次的新年才有梦寐以求的鞋和衣服？？:O
为什么有钱的不需要努力念书，而我们却每晚通宵熬夜煮粥吃番薯地念书才有那一张A4 size的纸？？ D:
我不知道。。。很烦，虽然每天安慰自己说：我们比其他人更幸福了；但是心中还是会酸酸的。

唉，神啊，这些都交在您的手中打理吧，我这个小小陶土人，是无法了解您的高深想法的。。。

Don't take yourself too important,they think u don't.
Don't put your heart in doing everything,they think u don't.
Don't talk like u know everything,they think u don't.
Don't accept every task given,they think u couldn't make it.


This is so negative and self-destructive.
This is what I am,how I've created.

Hold on

Hold on to what is good, even if it's a handful of earth. 
Hold on to what you believe, even if it's a tree that stands by itself. 
Hold on to what you must do, even if it's a long way from here. 
Hold on to your faith, even if it's easier to let go. Hold on to God's hand. 

Even a small unmeaning post still aching my heart...
U're just like cancer,don't u??
Spreading fast...Aching...Suffering...


The things that I never wanted to think happened...
Doesn't mean that I don't want to think or I'm afraid to face the fact
It's because it hurts,and I don't know how to say my feelings
It's awkward and painful.




=LLa LLa's blah blah=

Almost can't control my tears from falling when I heard: Yes 

Is it a good sign from God??

I don't know,

The only thing I knew is

I must fight very hard for it

I don't have other way to go

Bless me God

God wants u to know....

All too often loud events and daily busyness cloud your vision of God. Take some time to slow down; let there be silence, let there be peace. Calm your mind and let your inner voice re-emerge from the silence. Allow yourself to see visions, allow yourself to dream dreams; and you may hear the voice of God reaching out to you. 

我并不是你们想象中的快乐

My parents told me to stay,

But I've no interest to stay here anymore,

I need to do something,for myself.

I know it's cruel,but who'll really understand me?

They know what I want?

They know what I need?

I need a true-hearted friend...

I need a calm and peaceful life...

I need to become what I wanted to become since the 1st day I dreamed...

Guys,saying is easy,but would u guys actually do it??

I'm feeling a little depress of u guys...

Maybe is just my ego and selfishness made me doing things out of my mind.

Now I learned,I learned to give and take.

Don't pour all the water into the glass as u never know the glass can endure the pressure and volume.

Do it step by step,slowly...

Then,u'll get what u want...

God,forgive me as I'm the sinner,

I pray for myself,to lead me to the correct path.

Pray for everyone,to give what they wanted.

Pray for this world,as I've been having nightmares for 2 days continuously about the end of the word,this ain't a good sign.

...

1st :
Owned the power yet still don't know how to use it
Owned the talent yet still don't know how to exert it
Owned the chances yet still don't know how to grab it
I'm back to my very first dream again
The dream that I dreamed everyday before begin my life far away from my home


2nd:
Here u come...

Fiction

Life 


Fiction


Addicted       

As I know

心情1号：
就如我想像中的，
申请被驳回了，
没有中到，
竟然有点开心，
但是又要准备下心情，
被三姑六婆念下，
死都要念下，才甘愿。


心情2号：
不知道开口的第一句话是什么，
你永远都有借口在忙。


心情3号：
突然有感而发，想要做写作家，不知道为什么，
可能天天都在做梦吧。


心情4号：
说话又怎样?我习惯了安静，
又不是说话，就可以永远都不孤独。

I'm fine, nothing at all

看来我真的不善与人交际，

我还是活在自己的世界算了，

至少在这里我不会被欺负，

不会被揶揄，

还有懂得聆听的我说话的人。

不想再玩那游戏了，

累到我忘了怎么生气，

给你们继续玩吧，我累了。

我很好，没什么。

WHAT DO U WANT FROM ME?

U don't know anything about my past


It's too over guys,settle it before I show up


I say it and I mean it


Don't fooling me around


I got my temper and limit

I got nothing

Back to the same place again
Yet so far
Yet so familiar


I've been isolated from it 
For a long time
Or perhaps,not as long as what u think


I've tried to keep my pace with u guys
But I'm lost
Too much temptations dragged me from u guys


I don't know what should I do
I feel that I'm going back to my past again
When I was 15 years old


Locked myself in room
With the music turned on
And singing all by myself
Living in my own world


U don't know about my world
That's fine
As u ain't got the chance to come in
U're not welcome


Perhaps I'm gonna say it like this
Please put ur precious heart on other things too
They need to be concerned too


And for those who always share their loves
Thanks a lot,u're most welcome in my world
And u're not gonna regret for it
I'm not gonna let u down


Although I got nothing
Nothing at all

Not the time yet

It's not a good time for me to step into the God damn muddy piece of shit now,I don't wanna fall into the trap again,it's so hard for me to pull myself out of it...


Lightless...


Loneliness...


And dreamless...

Just wanna share a song I love recently :)

[YOU HAVEN'T SEEN THE LAST OF ME]
Performed by : Cher
Sound track from Burlesque 

Feeling broken

Barely holding on

But there's just something so strong

Somewhere inside me

And I am down but I'll get up again

Don't count me out just yet

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me

They can say that

I won't stay around

But I'm gonna stand my ground

You're not gonna stop me

You don't know me

You don't know who I am

Don't count me out so fast

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

There will be no fade out

This is not the end

I'm down now

But I'll be standing tall again

Times are hard but

I was built tough

I'm gonna show you all what I'm made of

I've been brought down to my knees

And I've been pushed way past the point of breaking

But I can take it

I'll be back

Back on my feet

This is far from over

I am far from over

You haven't seen the last of me

No no

I'm not going nowhere

I'm staying right here

Oh no

You won't see me begging

I'm not taking my bow

Can't stop me

It's not the end

You haven't seen the last of me

Oh no

You haven't seen the last of me

You haven't seen the last of me 

疲惫

第一次觉得这么累，从身体累到心理。
真不敢想像以后的日子要怎么过，
是该磨磨刀的时候了。 


:( May God forgives everything I done,as I'm the sinner.

寂寞，一点都不

情人节
对我来说只是个互送巧克力的日子

一个人又怎样了？少块肉了吗？
原谅我所说的每句话
不是狠
只是我所受的伤害远远超过我所表达的

对我来说
最重要的
是神，家人，朋友 + 小动物 XD
其他的
等我真正遇到了再说吧

Happy Valentine's Day :)